i think nobody actly reads this aha. hmm but guess i will just leave it here for me to post my occasional rant heh. these few days i have been feeling rather lost. idk if wad im doing is right. isit too much? i dun really need much. sometmes all i nid is some form of confirmation that im on the right track. mayb some form of recognition or acknowledgement. many times i feel caught in the middle, not knowing which way is the way to go. feeling helpless sucks and it is overwhelming at times and it just doesnt feel good.
shant dwell too much on that. lifes getting pretty boring.. its just studying studying and studying with nothing exciting at all to make my life seem even slightly interesting sighh. i kind of miss the days of the past. at least there were things like training to make things occasionally fun or sth. and the headaches just refuse to go away. i think for the past three weeks, the number of days with headaches are alr more than twice the number of days without headaches. esp this week. as of now the only day that is relatively headache-free is today. haha guess at this rate im really getting used to getting headaches. mayb when i get used to them they wont bother me as much. actly i have no stupid idea why i keep getting them its not as if i dun sleep enuff -.- stupid thing really. mayb its cos im using my brain too much haaha
O back to days earlier. i got so pissed off wif a certain someone who was apparently boasting about his family's wealth. Im quite certain this certain someone wudnt find his way here but i must say he was really lucky that my fist didnt magically find its way to his face. this certain someone was telling other ppl how rich his family was, being able to finance him to any U_ university without a scholarship. this is so retarded really. if ur rich its a good thing but i guess it shud be kept to urself isnt it? going around telling ppl about it is really asking for it. there are ppl who arent as lucky (urs truly is a living example) and i guess it isnt really advisable to go arnd showing off lidat. for all the brains that he has, if he doesnt put them to good use and shoot it off just lidat i guess hes gng to get into deep trouble pretty soon. unless of course hes delibrately trying to show ppl wad a great and lucky man he is.
anyway i have a new resolution! im gng to run 2.4 six times a week (: haha sounds pretty hard to pull off esp wif the hell of a knee that i have. i noe ahaha lets see how it goes (: